Kreuzberg

Lost my password :)

Found my password =)


World is at peace again.

Doing BEDA with Becky. We're going to blog everyday for April. I'm going to struggle but meh.

Right, getting a new car. Selling my minis. Selling Sydney. Buying an auto, im lazy, dont judge.

Thats all really going on with me. Will drop by tomorrow


Thanks,
Karl

Disaster Button

When I put the word "beauty" into google I got that picture there. No pictures of Laura, Google therefore loses.

Today was a Monday(oh joy). Courtney came over for a while but the highlights of the day were kissing Laura at break =) and Becky knocking for me with Aoife.

We had a hot chocolate rave.

Its funny how when you have someone who loves you and actual friends you start to realise how fantastic life can be.

Today = WIN.

Thanks,
Karl
xx

Fifty on our Foreheads

On the cusp of vessel 18
A look of terror in our eyes
The moonlight licked the face of danger
Innocence made us like soldiers
Untouchable and golden
The quilt of darkness dotted with our teardrops

I know you're sad I'm leaving
So this may hurt a little
But girl look from your window late tonight
You think my heart is frozen
While yours is slowly grieving
You'll see the boy you loved start burning in the sky

We were a dozen to the project
With a galaxy of questions
And all we heard was lies about the truth
No choice but be obedient
Like prisoners of war
Caught on the wrong side of morality and youth

We thought about our loved ones
Tallied 50 on our foreheads
With the pen your mother gave me in the Spring
The sun beat at the windows
Within an hour James had cracked
Left the ship and died still clinging to the wings



I love that song, Fifty on our Foreheads by White Lies. Another uneventful day.

I did however learn that I cannot be left alone with the foster child in case of allegations of sexual assault. Right so!

I love Laura, you knew that, I knew that, but I want to stress it

Thanks,
Karl
xx

Nothing to Give

A short blog tonight.

Met foster child, Courtney, I think she hates me but she loves Kayleigh so whatever.

Have hit a low, I dont know whats going on but without Laura I am fully confident I would have ended it all today.

I dont know why.

In fact, I randomly started crying a little bit ago, for no reason.

Thanks,
Karl
xx

From the Stars

According to the Gaffer, if you grouped everyone in the world together and removed all the empty space in our body, we would be the size of a sugar cube. Then again, the Gaffer also forgot what automatic doors were called.

Right, to the blog then. Wednesday today, half day is ace. Usual nonsense in school and then off to Superquinn to get a Hot Chocolate(no whipped cream, the bastards) with Shane.

Actually, mentioning Shane, that guy is an unsung hero. One of the few genuinely funny people I know. Patience of a saint as well. He was truly amazing after my attempt on my own life.

Next piece of news; finally got my White Lies album, thanks to Becky. Fantastic album. Not a bad song on it! There's creepy songs on it, moving songs and some fantastic pick-me-up songs.

I have homework to complete(there is a surprise)


Thanks,
Karl
xx

A Movie Script Ending

Isnt the world incredible? A blue marble in a sea of black nothingness. An incredible concept when you think about it. Here we are living on that tiny insignificant ball of mass. Makes you feel small, almost invisible and that makes me wonder a lot of the time.



So today was a Tuesday, the 3rd of March. What happened? Nothing to be honest. Foster child arrives next Wednesday however we meet her on Thursday this week. I have decided to cut my doasge of the Roaccutane. They are working well but I find myself constantly tired, paranoid and unmotivated.

That, to be honest, is all I can write for today. I will drop back tomorrow.


Thanks,
Karl
xx

Farewell to the Fairground

Lets not patronise with introductions.

Last night I went to see Snow Patrol with Becky and Laura. I had already seen Snow Patrol so the level of expectation was set high and wow! It was everything a person could seek in a show.

They opened with "If theres a Rocket, Tie me to it". Great opener! Highlights were Run(they turned off all the lights and everybody held up their mobile phones, it looked like a starry night sky...amazing). Shut your Eyes was great fun too and the Lightning Strike was out of this world.

Becky and Laura are, along with a few other things, the essentials in my life. I genuinely feel that without Becky I would have thrown myself backwards off a cliff. She is hilarious and a star.

And Laura, well I love her more than she will ever know. She's everything I could have ever wished for. But for some reason, for some stupid reason I cant shake the thought that its all just a little good to be through. I have this gut feeling that she'll leave me, and why not? I mean everyone else does! Whats to love?

Anyway, writing depressingly will make one depressed so lets cheer this up yo!

I have two awesome friends




Thanks,
Karl
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